[ He's not sure why that cracks him up, but it does, and he's definitely filing it away so he can see if he can tease Chara with it in any capacity out of the blue someday. He knows he can't... which is why he likes trying. ]
i don't want the fairies to think i'm CUTE asriel i'm gonna tell them i'm signor vespa lol OH MAYBE THEY CAN MAKE ME A MAGIC VESPA IF I DO think so???!!
[ guihrjkndfs i-is this how his bargaining magic will be discovered, trying to barter his freedom for a fucking vespa from the fae, oh no ]
smehow makes sense chara would wana play the bad guy ha but you? youre like THE good kid, asrietto. dont try to be like anyone but you. guess you gotta have an outlet tho... sooo hyperdeath it is? lol
anyway i dont know ANYTHING about fairies there are no fairies where im from just sea monsters and land monsters as far as i know but if theyre MEAN..... i guess they probably wouldnt wanna make me a special magic vespa, huh lol
.... That's not true. Alberto, you don't know about everything that happened at home. But, I've done a lot of really bad things. At home... I wasn't "myself" for a really long time.
You should know the truth, especially if... things end up different here.
( Asriel doesn't want anyone to think that Chara's... well... bad-natured compared to Asriel. They don't deserve that. Especially after his time as Flowey.
Especially after calling Alberto a best friend. Doesn't he deserve to know the truth? )
look im not saying chara is BAD you know that right?? chara is all pepper, ha, that's all. i like chara. a lot. they're like my second best friend here next to you. but you're so NICE... and honestly ive done bad things too. im like THE BAD KID... always have been....... ha pretty much i always ruin everything, thats what my dad always used to say. and... sometimes its still true? but its ok. as long as we wanna be better then that means we ARE better.
but if you want to keep secrets thats ok with me if you dont want to keep secrets thats ok with me too ok?
Chara wasn't always like that. But, there were things at home that happened that's changed them. It's not their fault. But... they're still my best friend. No matter how much they change, they'll always be my best friend.
Alberto you're not a bad kid. You're nice and friendly and you just want to have fun. That doesn't make you bad.
It's not a secret or anything. But, I'm not like that anymore. If I leave here, this is the me I want people to know me as. At home... I did a lot of bad things. I helped Chara with a plan that meant that they would die. And then... after that... I ended up as someone completely different. I couldn't feel love or empathy for anyone. I didn't have a SOUL. A monster's SOUL is made of things like that. So without that... It means that someone can become someone really dangerous. So after a while... I hurt and lied to a lot of people. Just because I could.
Frisk is the one who helped me remember who I used to be before all of that. They saved me. It's part of why I want to see them just one more time.
[ There's a significant delay as Alberto types the longest text message he's ever typed ever. But dwells on every word before he sends it. Treats it like a letter to Luca... just without any of the cute drawings to soften things. It's all punch. ]
asrietto... thats luca for me. he saved me. he got me off the island. literally and figuratively...
chara told me they killed themself to save your family. i dont know the details... and it's none of my business, REALLY. i dont need to know. but... even if they think theyre not a nice person... and even if thats a CRAZY thing to do... if they did it to save someone else, then thats selfless, yknow? and thats nice. thats good. people change a lot. sometimes it takes a long time. and sometimes people DONT change.
i dont think my dad is gonna change. i hoped for a long time he would. but... despite evertying... even now i dont think my dad is BAD. hes just... dad. that sjust him. he is who he is. i know that now. yknow? becuse i am who i am too. whatever dad thinsk about me... or whatever anyone else thinks too!
WE decide the truth. what we need it to be. when we need it to be, whatever we decide it to be. even if it changes. even if it changes over and over and over again! capisce? anything else, thats just bruno talking. bruno LYING.
i lie. i do stupid things. i cause people problems. i DO ruin everything...!!! i KNOW i do!!! thats the worst part becase i do it anyway?? i hurt giulia because i was jealous. i hurt LUCA. i betrayed him he betrayed ME... i ruined massimo's business I BURNED MASSIMO'S BOAT
but you know what? we fixed it. massimo told me when he was our age, once, he made his dad SO ANGRY that his dad punched a hole in a BRICK WALL but then... they fixed it.
you and frisk fixed it. you and chara fixed it. some things cant be fixed. if my dad showed up HERE... i dont know if we could fix it. i dont know if he'd WANT to... but if he does show up, and he doesnt want to...
then thats ok too. becus i fixed it already. with luca. and massimo. and with you. and even chara too. you know what i mean?
so even if we punched A BUNCH OF HOLES in a brick wall... we just fix it.
I'm really really glad you have someone like that. I think that at one point, we all have someone who saves us. Back when Chara and I first met... they fell into the Underground. I don't really know all the details as to why, but... I think that back then... bringing them back to Mom and Dad helped them.
... I don't know how much Chara told you about the plan, but After they died, I absorbed their SOUL Our SOULS merged together, and Chara took control of our body. They carried their body to the surface. A lot of humans thought that I had hurt them. So... they attacked me. I didn't want to hurt them. I refused to fight back. So... I ended up dying, too. It's my fault that we weren't able to free everyone. But, someone brought me back. The scientist in the Underground brought me back. That's when I didn't have a SOUL.
But, it was because of that that I thought that the world was kill-or-be-killed. It was partly because of that that I ended up hurting so many people. I thought that if I had known that before... I wouldn't have failed. Chara's SOUL would still have been with me.
I'm really glad that I ended up meeting Frisk. I think that if I hadn't -- I wouldn't have come here being the me that met you, Alberto.
( More than anything else -- all... they really wanted was to see Chara again. )
Maybe that me from back then -- Flowey -- he's my Bruno. He's the one who tells me it's okay to do bad things. But we both know that what he says is WRONG.
Alberto, we all make mistakes. But, the fact that you want to change is most important!! And it sounds like Luca forgave you, just like you forgave him.
A friend here told me that the Asriel that was here with them was what was important. That's the same for you!! The Alberto I know is really kind and a good friend. You've taught me a lot. You helped me remember how I was back then.
I'm really glad I got to meet you. I've never had a friend like you before. And, even if you did bad things in the past -- I know that the you who's here is a good person.
Let's keep working together. To fix whatever mistakes we make.
[ There's another delay, because... Alberto can't respond. That's too raw. Some of it's over his head. But most of it's not. And he's been trapped alone in his room — or at least felt trapped alone, like he's felt trapped alone for so long before this, what feels like a lifetime ago now — all because of the snow, all because of fear people won't accept him for who he is... which may be a valid fear, all things considered, but it still has hurt in a new way. Reading all this now...? It's been a while since he's cried. So he just... needs a moment, cuddled up in bed with Sofia, both huddled in a blanket, hugging her close to him, rubbing his tears against her cheek-to-cheek as he kisses her all over her face against her will.
But at least she, for all her orneriness, has come to tolerate him, especially since being "trapped" together inside the past couple weeks since the sky started leaking. She accepts him, Asriel accepts him, even Chara accepts him — even when he does annoying things like make rubber chickens sing opera and makes dismembered fish corpses talk at them, Chara's always played along. Maybe they've all done bad things. Maybe the things Asriel and Chara have done are way worse — it pretty much sounds like it... and it sounds like their life was a hell of a lot more complicated than Alberto's lonely island life back home. But... back home was back home. And that's kind of their whole point in this conversation. The future is now.
He takes his time to compose himself, because for as transparent as he's being tonight, feeling at the end of his rope, there's gotta be a limit. He's definitely not admitting to crying and, naturally, his first deflect, even if it's only for his own private sake, is humor and levity. Asriel isn't too much — neither is Chara — just this moment. But it's a moment he's extremely glad for, too. ]
sounds good to me and things definitely will end up different here sounds like all that would be PRETTY HARD to repeat...!
i don't know about sharing a SOUL or dying or any of that stuff but i can cook some good food and i know lots of good human music and i'll always try to be a good friend and if we do stupid stuff for fun i know i wont let you get hurt if the humans try to hurt us, im learning how to fight, id stand up for you. if you wont fight back i always will. even if it's just fighting against bruno or flowey or whatever we wanna call it. ALL the bullies!! and that stuff is all part of having a soul and love and empathy and stuff like that, like you said, the stuff that makes a monster a person and not a monster-monster no matter what the humans think about monsters yknow??? or what we think about ourselves...
what we think about each other matters a lot. and im glad i met you and chara too. im glad we're all friends. lets try to be our best selves here and if we mess up then it's just like learning a new way to NOT mess up in the end so even if we're under thedogs at laest we're under the dogs together ha
becuz whatever happened back home... is back home... and we can't go back there. so we gotta fix it here and so far i think that just measn making cool fireworks and cooking pasta and eating pie and joking around and doing crazy stuff and coming up with silly nicknames like asrietto and mia cara and maybe signor vespa lol whatever we come up with together so that bad things dont happen. and if they do anyway...... well i guess it wont be the first time ha? we got this. forza!!!!
( There's a familiar sense of anxiety that fills him when Alberto doesn't seem to respond for a while. It's always something that he feels here when he tells others here the extent of his dark past. However, at the same time - Alberto is perhaps the only person here who has heard the full extent of everything that's happened. He may not know the truth of it all - how he aided Chara in starting the plan - how he once wanted to follow in their footsteps -- but it's more than enough. The story of what happened to Chara and Asriel is something every monster seems to know, but they aren't aware of the full truth.
No. That was something that only Alphys and Frisk knew. The truth of it was concealed in a place where no monster could really go. Where their Father would never see the tapes that showed Chara and Asriel conversing about what they were going to do.
But then, Alberto responds - and Asriel can feel a rush of relief fill him.
Right, this wasn't about then - this was about now. About fixing the mistakes of their past by living for the moment at hand. In this place, here and now - Asriel wants to live. He wants to continue to learn how to be good again.
He wants to be the friend that he couldn't be in the past. )
It's okay Alberto The humans here are nice. But, I know that not everyone is like that. There's always going to be people here who are different than Frisk. There are humans out there that won't understand us. But, that's why we should stick together.
I know that it's hard to be away from home. But I'm glad that we got to meet Alberto. And even if we don't get to stay together We'll still be together because we have those bracelets
Let's keep having fun And learning together here We were going to put a big show on for everyone right? That can be the next good thing we do And we can make a big feast too when Luca gets here
[ That message is a huge relief to Alberto, too. It's all stuff he agrees with, and while the note about their bracelets keeping them together now brings tears to his eyes again, it's with a smile. And spontaneously, his response is... a photograph first. Of a drawingtaped together, the lightning bolt shooting out of the telescope barely visible after being erased. ]
thats me and luca when we get our vespa someday after hes done with school back home... he left. i sent him to school. i convinced his family to let him leave and live in a big human city far away his mom went crazy lol but she let him go i sold our vespa even tho it was our dream to travel the world together on it and we risked our lives to win it..... but i knew luca was happier to go to school with giulia.. even if it meant he left me.
but he never REALLY left!! when he left for genoa i gave him this drawing id made of us on our dream vespa before he decided he wanted to go to school and now i have it here for some reason??? but im so glad i have it we got to write letters all the time and talk on the telephone sometimes after luca left but even if we couldnt have every time luca jumps off a cliff, looks at the sun, tells bruno to shut up thats me with him and now every time i jump off a cliff and tell bruno to shut up... look at the stars...thats him with me too hah and every time i eat pasta and listen to opera and go fishing, thats massimo now!
so if one of us disappears and goes home, asriel its the same even if we lose the bracelets, its the memories that count however long they last
so til we SAVE OUR WHOLE WORLDS lol we'll just keep making more memories!!! even cooler ones!!
when should we do the fireworks show? lets get that giacomo guy to help us i want to make like THE BEST frieworks anyones ever SEEN hah!!!!
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Date: 2021-12-02 01:22 pm (UTC)chara the demon!
good.
[ He's not sure why that cracks him up, but it does, and he's definitely filing it away so he can see if he can tease Chara with it in any capacity out of the blue someday. He knows he can't... which is why he likes trying. ]
i don't want the fairies to think i'm CUTE asriel
i'm gonna tell them i'm signor vespa lol
OH
MAYBE THEY CAN MAKE ME A MAGIC VESPA IF I DO
think so???!!
[ guihrjkndfs i-is this how his bargaining magic will be discovered, trying to barter his freedom for a fucking vespa from the fae, oh no ]
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Date: 2021-12-02 11:44 pm (UTC)I guess back then I wanted to be like them
So that's why I made up Hyperdeath heheh
Do you think they could???
I don't know if the Fairies are that powerful
They aren't usually like that in stories
And they're usually kind of mean too
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Date: 2021-12-03 12:34 am (UTC)but you? youre like THE good kid, asrietto. dont try to be like anyone but you.
guess you gotta have an outlet tho... sooo hyperdeath it is? lol
anyway i dont know ANYTHING about fairies
there are no fairies where im from
just sea monsters and land monsters as far as i know
but if theyre MEAN..... i guess they probably wouldnt wanna make me a special magic vespa, huh
lol
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Date: 2021-12-03 12:52 am (UTC)That's not true.
Alberto, you don't know about everything that happened at home.
But, I've done a lot of really bad things.
At home... I wasn't "myself" for a really long time.
You should know the truth, especially if... things end up different here.
( Asriel doesn't want anyone to think that Chara's... well... bad-natured compared to Asriel. They don't deserve that. Especially after his time as Flowey.
Especially after calling Alberto a best friend. Doesn't he deserve to know the truth? )
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Date: 2021-12-03 01:08 am (UTC)"the truth?"
"end up different here?"
look im not saying chara is BAD you know that right?? chara is all pepper, ha, that's all. i like chara. a lot. they're like my second best friend here next to you. but you're so NICE... and honestly ive done bad things too. im like THE BAD KID... always have been....... ha pretty much i always ruin everything, thats what my dad always used to say. and... sometimes its still true? but its ok. as long as we wanna be better then that means we ARE better.
but
if you want to keep secrets
thats ok with me
if you dont want to keep secrets
thats ok with me too
ok?
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Date: 2021-12-03 01:25 am (UTC)But, there were things at home that happened that's changed them. It's not their fault.
But... they're still my best friend. No matter how much they change, they'll always be my best friend.
Alberto you're not a bad kid.
You're nice and friendly and you just want to have fun.
That doesn't make you bad.
It's not a secret or anything.
But, I'm not like that anymore.
If I leave here, this is the me I want people to know me as.
At home... I did a lot of bad things.
I helped Chara with a plan that meant that they would die.
And then... after that... I ended up as someone completely different.
I couldn't feel love or empathy for anyone. I didn't have a SOUL. A monster's SOUL is made of things like that. So without that... It means that someone can become someone really dangerous.
So after a while... I hurt and lied to a lot of people. Just because I could.
Frisk is the one who helped me remember who I used to be before all of that.
They saved me.
It's part of why I want to see them just one more time.
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Date: 2021-12-03 02:12 am (UTC)asrietto... thats luca for me.
he saved me.
he got me off the island. literally and figuratively...
chara told me they killed themself to save your family. i dont know the details... and it's none of my business, REALLY. i dont need to know. but... even if they think theyre not a nice person... and even if thats a CRAZY thing to do... if they did it to save someone else, then thats selfless, yknow? and thats nice. thats good.
people change a lot.
sometimes it takes a long time.
and sometimes people DONT change.
i dont think my dad is gonna change. i hoped for a long time he would.
but... despite evertying... even now i dont think my dad is BAD. hes just... dad. that sjust him. he is who he is. i know that now. yknow? becuse i am who i am too. whatever dad thinsk about me... or whatever anyone else thinks too!
WE decide the truth. what we need it to be. when we need it to be, whatever we decide it to be. even if it changes. even if it changes over and over and over again! capisce?
anything else, thats just bruno talking. bruno LYING.
i lie. i do stupid things. i cause people problems.
i DO ruin everything...!!! i KNOW i do!!! thats the worst part
becase i do it anyway??
i hurt giulia because i was jealous. i hurt LUCA.
i betrayed him
he betrayed ME...
i ruined massimo's business
I BURNED MASSIMO'S BOAT
but you know what?
we fixed it.
massimo told me when he was our age, once, he made his dad SO ANGRY that his dad punched a hole in a BRICK WALL
but then... they fixed it.
you and frisk fixed it. you and chara fixed it.
some things cant be fixed.
if my dad showed up HERE...
i dont know if we could fix it. i dont know if he'd WANT to...
but if he does show up, and he doesnt want to...
then thats ok too.
becus i fixed it already.
with luca. and massimo.
and with you. and even chara too.
you know what i mean?
so even if we punched A BUNCH OF HOLES in a brick wall... we just fix it.
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Date: 2021-12-03 02:37 am (UTC)I think that at one point, we all have someone who saves us.
Back when Chara and I first met... they fell into the Underground.
I don't really know all the details as to why, but... I think that back then... bringing them back to Mom and Dad helped them.
... I don't know how much Chara told you about the plan, but
After they died, I absorbed their SOUL
Our SOULS merged together, and Chara took control of our body. They carried their body to the surface.
A lot of humans thought that I had hurt them. So... they attacked me. I didn't want to hurt them. I refused to fight back. So... I ended up dying, too. It's my fault that we weren't able to free everyone.
But, someone brought me back. The scientist in the Underground brought me back.
That's when I didn't have a SOUL.
But, it was because of that that I thought that the world was kill-or-be-killed. It was partly because of that that I ended up hurting so many people.
I thought that if I had known that before... I wouldn't have failed. Chara's SOUL would still have been with me.
I'm really glad that I ended up meeting Frisk.
I think that if I hadn't -- I wouldn't have come here being the me that met you, Alberto.
( More than anything else -- all... they really wanted was to see Chara again. )
Maybe that me from back then -- Flowey -- he's my Bruno.
He's the one who tells me it's okay to do bad things.
But we both know that what he says is WRONG.
Alberto, we all make mistakes.
But, the fact that you want to change is most important!! And it sounds like Luca forgave you, just like you forgave him.
A friend here told me that the Asriel that was here with them was what was important. That's the same for you!! The Alberto I know is really kind and a good friend. You've taught me a lot. You helped me remember how I was back then.
I'm really glad I got to meet you. I've never had a friend like you before. And, even if you did bad things in the past -- I know that the you who's here is a good person.
Let's keep working together.
To fix whatever mistakes we make.
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Date: 2021-12-03 05:43 am (UTC)But at least she, for all her orneriness, has come to tolerate him, especially since being "trapped" together inside the past couple weeks since the sky started leaking. She accepts him, Asriel accepts him, even Chara accepts him — even when he does annoying things like make rubber chickens sing opera and makes dismembered fish corpses talk at them, Chara's always played along. Maybe they've all done bad things. Maybe the things Asriel and Chara have done are way worse — it pretty much sounds like it... and it sounds like their life was a hell of a lot more complicated than Alberto's lonely island life back home. But... back home was back home. And that's kind of their whole point in this conversation. The future is now.
He takes his time to compose himself, because for as transparent as he's being tonight, feeling at the end of his rope, there's gotta be a limit. He's definitely not admitting to crying and, naturally, his first deflect, even if it's only for his own private sake, is humor and levity. Asriel isn't too much — neither is Chara — just this moment. But it's a moment he's extremely glad for, too. ]
sounds good to me
and things definitely will end up different here
sounds like all that would be PRETTY HARD to repeat...!
i don't know about sharing a SOUL or dying or any of that stuff but
i can cook some good food
and i know lots of good human music
and i'll always try to be a good friend
and if we do stupid stuff for fun i know i wont let you get hurt
if the humans try to hurt us, im learning how to fight, id stand up for you. if you wont fight back i always will.
even if it's just fighting against bruno or flowey or whatever we wanna call it. ALL the bullies!!
and that stuff is all part of having a soul and love and empathy and stuff like that, like you said, the stuff that makes a monster a person and not a monster-monster no matter what the humans think about monsters yknow??? or what we think about ourselves...
what we think about each other matters a lot.
and im glad i met you and chara too. im glad we're all friends.
lets try to be our best selves here and if we mess up then it's just like learning a new way to NOT mess up in the end
so even if we're under thedogs at laest we're under the dogs together ha
becuz whatever happened back home... is back home... and we can't go back there. so we gotta fix it here
and so far i think that just measn making cool fireworks and cooking pasta and eating pie and joking around and doing crazy stuff and coming up with silly nicknames
like asrietto and mia cara
and maybe signor vespa lol
whatever we come up with together so that bad things dont happen.
and if they do anyway...... well i guess it wont be the first time ha?
we got this. forza!!!!
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Date: 2021-12-13 01:23 am (UTC)No. That was something that only Alphys and Frisk knew. The truth of it was concealed in a place where no monster could really go. Where their Father would never see the tapes that showed Chara and Asriel conversing about what they were going to do.
But then, Alberto responds - and Asriel can feel a rush of relief fill him.
Right, this wasn't about then - this was about now. About fixing the mistakes of their past by living for the moment at hand. In this place, here and now - Asriel wants to live. He wants to continue to learn how to be good again.
He wants to be the friend that he couldn't be in the past. )
It's okay Alberto
The humans here are nice.
But, I know that not everyone is like that.
There's always going to be people here who are different than Frisk. There are humans out there that won't understand us.
But, that's why we should stick together.
I know that it's hard to be away from home.
But I'm glad that we got to meet Alberto.
And even if we don't get to stay together
We'll still be together because we have those bracelets
Let's keep having fun
And learning together here
We were going to put a big show on for everyone right?
That can be the next good thing we do
And we can make a big feast too when Luca gets here
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Date: 2021-12-13 01:59 am (UTC)thats me and luca
when we get our vespa someday
after hes done with school
back home... he left. i sent him to school.
i convinced his family to let him leave and live in a big human city far away
his mom went crazy lol
but she let him go
i sold our vespa even tho it was our dream to travel the world together on it and we risked our lives to win it.....
but i knew luca was happier to go to school with giulia.. even if it meant he left me.
but he never REALLY left!!
when he left for genoa i gave him this drawing id made of us on our dream vespa before he decided he wanted to go to school
and now i have it here for some reason??? but im so glad i have it
we got to write letters all the time and talk on the telephone sometimes after luca left but even if we couldnt have
every time luca jumps off a cliff, looks at the sun, tells bruno to shut up
thats me with him
and now every time i jump off a cliff and tell bruno to shut up... look at the stars...thats him with me too
hah and every time i eat pasta and listen to opera and go fishing, thats massimo now!
so if one of us disappears and goes home, asriel
its the same
even if we lose the bracelets, its the memories that count
however long they last
so til we SAVE OUR WHOLE WORLDS lol we'll just keep making more memories!!! even cooler ones!!
when should we do the fireworks show? lets get that giacomo guy to help us
i want to make like THE BEST frieworks anyones ever SEEN hah!!!!